Are you able to guess it.... I gained all that weight back!!

So Back at 353 lbs. Last November I was at 375 lbs.  I have been going to to doctor 1 time a month to try to help me lose weight. The thing is he says that i can eat what i want but i don't think he fully understands I have a addiction to food. I cant find anywhere on this blog what the hell i was eating to lose 75 lbs in 2009. So I will start eating right again, no fast food, junk food or drinking soda. I haven't drank any soda since Aug 11th but i went from 347 to 358 lbs. Also I have really bad depression right now from my weight. I hate doing anything other than work and dealing with my kids. Some days I don't want to be around my husband. So starting Friday I will start doing weight in. Also Tuesdays I think I will start posting what i ate all day. This way if i start to loss the weight again I can refer back if I start to fall off the wagon. Also shame on me for getting under 300 and being upset that i hit a damn plateau. What the Hell was I thinking!!! I was wrong to say in 4 yr i will be 450 lbs but 375 was close enough. I just want to have energy and feel better about myself. To many years have passed and me to feel so let w

biggest loser

so my twin sister and i are trying to get on the biggest loser. we need to get as many view on you tube as possible. the link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QLy1kNxlBC8

meet my baby girl!

I had a baby on may 7th at 10:03 pm. she weighed in at 7lbs 2 ounces and was 19 inches long. Jeremy and i named her Alyssa Frances. So I'm getting back into losing weight again. i weighed in at 309 yesterday morning. so wish me luck! p.s. Alyssa is a little angel!

Saturday, November 07, 2009- 306.00

So guess what i am married and now prego. yeah!!!!!!! But i will not let that allow me to gain all that weight back. I haven't really been tring to maintain my weight since the last blog. But now my good friend Jen is trying to lose weight and i want to get back on the right track. I know being prego i really cant lose that much weight but i can still maintain what i am at. the doc says its ok for me to lose 10 pounds but not any more due to the baby. I am due May 16th 2010.

thursdays wiegh in 297.5

Yeah i cant get out of this rut. but atleast i havent hit 300 again.

thursdays weigh in 295.6

yeah down two lbs. but still have 5 more to go to be were i was at three weeks ago. Man, stress can really get to you!

Thursdays Weigh in 297.5

Ouch, the biggest weight gain i have had since i have started. 7.5 lbs is huge! I know water weight because aunt flow will be here tomorrow. But the number one factor stress. My job is changing big time ( lost my manager spot from down sizing) but i still have my job. the wedding is getting closer. I had to spend more money on a washer and dryer then i wanted to. I just feel very over whelmed and Thursday and Friday i fell off the wagon again. It seems like that happening allot lately. I feel like i don't have the will power i did in the beginning. I just have to keep reminding myself that i don't want to go back. i want to continue losing weight and not losing the battle. I ts just hard at times and this last two months have been really hard.