thursdays wiegh in 292.1

Yeah so i have lost all that added wieght and a pound! I know i can get back on and keep going. Sorry to cut this short. and sorry for blogging so late for last thursday. Thanks Kins for keeping me on track!

thursdays wiegh in ( ok so i am late on this!) 297.7

yeah so i gained again last week. 1.7 lbs. Honestly i am still cheating, fell off the darn wagon and taking my time to get back on i feel like. Last week i was still eating after 7, some days till 11am. umm ate Doritos, crumble coffee cake, star bucks, and cinn buns. Yeah i really feel off the darn wagon, but i am trying to be good today. Today i can just jump back on and try again. I know i can do it. I need to keep going. and sorry heather for snapping about my blog. I just don't like to admit to failure. It sucks and i only have one person to blame, me. I am the one that is hindering my success and i am the only one that can put me back on track. Want to hear another secret, ummm i haven't worked out in a month. again i WILL work out tonight. at least for a half hour. I think i set standards to high and feeling a little down and out cause of those standards. If i just keep going a lose or stay the same then i will be happy. No more of expecting to lose 3 lbs a week or forcing myself to work out for three hours a day. I wanted to keep up with the biggest loser and that isn't realistic. Sorry you guys for letting you down. Mostly sorry for letting myself down and giving up on myself. I have to be better to myself and give myself a chance to live!

thursdays weigh in. 296.00

i cheated....again!!!!!! eating after 7pm. Next week will be better. Jusdt stressed that jp might be losing his job, but thats not an excuse. Talk to you all later.

Thursdays Weigh in 293.7

Yeah four lbs this week. Not bad. I have 2 more lbs and i am at amy's pre operation weight. At that time i was 275lbsish. I just want to get to 270 so i can get my own insurance, which would be really nice. Follow up next week with you guys. Yeah i am getting there!

Thursdays Weigh in 297.7

1.3 lb gain. but i know it because i cheated. I had a fun time, but its a good reminder that i cant change what i eat or i will gain. I know it sounds silly that one day can impact your weekly outcome, but when i weighed myself on Sunday i was back at 307.4. Alcohol drinks make you retain lot of water. And then the bite sizes brownies and chips and dip i had at the party also added into that. But now i am back down to 297.7. I told kins that on Thursday i would still be a pound over. that's what happened last time. I just need the reminder every now and then. Thanks Eliece for telling me you view my blog. Its nice to know that i still have a hand full of people who follow. Kins, Elise, Heather and Jen are my biggest followers, they give me phrase every week. The first couple of months were rough, but i think i have it now. :D 130 more to go, doesn't seem so far away now.

thursdays late weigh in. 296.4

Yeah another 2 lbs. I just need to keep going, sorry i didnt post till friday. Work kept me all day.

thursday weigh in 298.7

hahahahah i did it, under 300!. 298.7 now. i am so freaken happy! lost 51 pounds in 5 months. i still have more to go, but one mountain down 130 more to go. when that number is below 100 i have to lose that will be another mountain. so 270 is my next goal. 240 is another one, 220 and then 199. So breaking it down for goals. thanks for the support everyone!!!!!